Day 36: 3/29/2016
I have started this post many times and deleted each one.
The truth is, I don't know what to say and I don't want to fake it. I feel like quitting this journey, today.
I don't know what happened. Nothing terrible has happened. I'm not sick. I have a wonderful wife, 2 awesome dogs that I love like hooman children. I have a great job with a great team. I have a supportive and loving family.
I think I'm burned out. I want to quit because I feel like I emotionally, and mentally don't have anything left to give to this challenge right now.
Now, with those truths out in the world, I can begin to accept that I want to quit and choose to continue. It's not going to be easy. In fact, I know it's just going to get harder.
I am keeping in mind, that the reason I'm doing this is about more than just me. It's about a wonderful wife who depends on me to be there for the life we planned together. It's about those 2 awesome pups that depend on me and give me unconditional love. It's about being well enough to cross the things off my "bucket list".
What kind of example do I set if I quit?
This will likely be the hardest thing you ever do, and I know you won't quit. Because you're an amazing person and an even better friend. I've never known you to be a quitter and I don't expect you to quit now. I have struggled with weight my entire life too and I wish I could be there to help you on this endeavor. Keep on fighting the good fight my friend and I'll try to do the same.
ReplyDeleteThanks, buddy. I truly miss you all the time. I wish you were here. I won't quit, no matter how much I feel like it.
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